I know it does get better, but I am not there yet.

2021.09.23 11:33 blubericc I know it does get better, but I am not there yet.

We were together for 2 and a half years. Last year, he broke up with me, but reached out to me again after a few months. That is why we eventually got back together. But now, I was the one who broke it off. I felt so alone in our second try in the relationship. He has not resolved his issue of not communicating well, as he would ignore me for weeks whenever we fight. We basically just swept off our issues under the rug. I was already feeling abandoned even before the breakup, and even when we got closer with each other's families this time, I still felt this uncertainty – I kept on asking myself if that was it, if he was really the person I would want to be my husband.
With how absent he was, I felt suspicious about him cheating on me. I never proved it. But this feeling made me do very irrational things, like check his socmed profiles obsessively to see his interactions. I never felt secure. He also barely did anything to cast my worries. I did not like who I was in that relationship. I felt like I was always asking to be treated right.
When I ended things, he was pissed off. He told me how shallow and immature I was. He told me how ironic it was that I am so smart, but would not think rationally about us. He told me that he doesn't give a fuck that it was me who ended the relationship, that he was clean and had nothing to be ashamed of. He said that he would never marry someone like me. I did not respond to all his consecutive angry texts, instead, I told him that I, too, would not want to be married with someone who does not care. I told him that he could say all the hurtful words he could say, but I will no longer respond. I was done.
He replied for the last time, calmer, saying that he did not want to end things that way, but that it appears to him that I was already desperate to end the relationship. On the last line of his message, he said that I should grow, that I was not mature enough. I felt gaslighted, but I never responded because I was so, so exhausted.
At the moment, I feel so lonely and miserable and bored. I know that being together again would not fix things, because he clearly doesn't recognize the issue with his actions. But every time I would picture him with another woman, I would feel so sick to my stomach. I know that the relationship just made me hate myself, but there were great parts of it that I know I could not replicate with anyone else. And while I was angry and hurt for what he did to me, I could not help but wonder if I could have just sacrificed my desires of being treated better, of being in a relationship that felt right. We were not healthy for each other, but I miss him so much. I do not have someone to talk to, but even when we were still together, he did not seem to be very interested in what I wanted to talk about. I miss arguing with him. I miss seeing him with my family. I miss his family.
Does it really get better at all?
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2021.09.23 11:33 iloverainbowssueme to anyone knew and doubting here ya go ❤

“The body achieves what the mind believes.”
These post is a powerful message out there, you are powerful.
And you do have the power inside you to change everything.
We are literally taught by this erratic modern society that we can only extensively control our physical realm and not the subconscious one.
We are taught that for us to change our body, we have to undergo through many unesscercary surgical procedures just to alter our body, but why do they do that? The answer is simple. They want money.
The world is increasingly declining its standard and perception of reality, which makes us sad and depressed because the society and media outwardly exposes these ‘flaws’ of yours that are not flaws at all!
How do you get people from the western world to consume lethal doses of tanning products? How do you get people from Korea to get a dangerous plastic surgeries? Why does the skin-whitening products are booming all over asia? because of the overwhelmingly pressure of the media and Te-“lie”-vision.
The media and this materialistic science have tricked us into believing that Changing Genetic expression is just a hollywood fantasy myth! But the truth is far more complicated than that.
There is a concept known to ancient science which says that “our essential body is not a level of matter.”
There is a reality out there that is hidden from people that only successful people knows whether it be eastern esoteric science, Law of Attraction, Law of reaping and sowing, Karma or any other fundamental truths that are kept hidden because the society wants to.
Many people believe that biokinesis or changing of genetic expression is a total laughing stock and a mere belief, many naysayers are arguing that it is in fact impossible because we have no control of our genetic blueprint, or simply the mere fact that our DNA shapes our ways and our future.
The truth is Biokinesis can happen to any of us, our physical body changes and what I mean is that atomic and cellular levels morph and change every two years, so why doesn’t a physical trait like eye color change after that period?
The answer lies in the cellular memory of our life, It has been estimated that humans thinks and feels 60,000 thoughts a day, unbelievable! The problem is 2/3 of our thoughts are the same thoughts we had in yesterday up to the past weeks and years, and this is why we should be careful of our thoughts because if we keep on thinking negatively, we become victims of the stale repetition of thoughts and thus the sickness or that ‘unchangeable’ trait remains in the cellular memory or the subconscious mind. Yes you can change your physical traits like eye color, hair, height, body shape, and the only way you can do it is by breaking that repetition of negative thoughts! That is the reason why Subliminals, supraliminals and affirmations work on changing the physical structure of the body, it’s because of the fact that it replaces the thoughts in the deepest parts of the subconscious mind and replaces it with the new stale of affirmations encoded that you desire to happen, that’s why subliminals takes time, the Egyptian civilisation was not built in just days, it took a long time for the Empire to rise, just like your body.
The science has done radioisotope studies that shows our body replaces 99% of all the atoms in our body!
We literally make a new liver every six weeks, new eye cells in two months, new skin once a month, new stomach lining every five days and a new skeleton every three months.
DNA come and go every six weeks and subliminals can affect the DNA, because it is encoded in our cellular memory.
There has been a new study that meditation and words can change DNA, and thousands of claims on the internet that they morphed their physical traits by watching subliminals. There are scientific claims that visualisation does help in changing habits, physical features and claims that believing something that will work do works (placebo effect) that is why conventional synthetic medicines works because the mind believes It! Imagine if you can believe something so strongly and positively that it can change anything, think about it.
Our beliefs and thoughts shapes our reality and our physiology, and learning these is not just helpful because you want to change something but it is your consciousness that is excersised, we realize that what we want to become is what the body morphs itself into.
Belief, Visualisation and patience is the key on getting anything that you want. Remember change is the only thing permanent in this world and if you want to change something believe that it will.
but remember you cant change things that are out of your control like illness, injuries, other people, the weather, the past, the future
i hope this helps you❤
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2021.09.23 11:33 dwbyyc Airplay password

When trying to use airplay on any of my Sonos speakers, it keeps asking me for the airplay password. I don’t recall setting up a password and have tried all of my usual password but nothing works.
This issue is happening on all of my Sonos products for both wired (amps and beam) and wireless (Move and One) speakers.
I’ve tried Googling the issue and all of the posts require going thorough Apple TV, but I don’t have Apple TV so that isn’t a solution for me.
Any idea how to reset this password?
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2021.09.23 11:33 HBitsy Does anyone know how guild ranking works?

I know that ranking can be found in the missions area of the guild, but I'm having trouble figuring out how it is determined. I noticed that participation in the Guild Party doesn't seem to effect it, so that leaves Secret Missions and maybe donations. Do they use one or both of these to determine guild ranking?
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2021.09.23 11:33 Cultural_Attache Trump Reaffirms Lab Leak Theory, Ex-Intel Head Pushes Declassification

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2021.09.23 11:33 autohypnosis Is there a no jailbreak equivalent to EQE?

There are at least 10 scam apps that claim to boost volume and EQ but don’t work
I just need it to increase Spotify volume for AirPods
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2021.09.23 11:33 EBAHofasoul It's an IT problem, but... I foot the blame?

Context: I worked briefly in IT, but changed jobs completely. I work at an apartment complex for the independent senior. Our facility lacks proper grounding and when a storm rolls through, so do the issues. Our latest brand of fuck up is... Our music for our entire building.
To start: I work evenings AND was out with something personal, at the time. I was gone when the issue occurred and when they originally tried to remedy it. We have 2 seperate peices of hardware for our music. 1 for the upstairs(desktop)and 1 for the downstairs(laptop), they are controlled by 2 separate computers. When I returned I noticed that the music for US was on on DS computer, which is not normal.. I told my boss about it, she knew already and said they were waiting on a part. Ok, cool, at this point I have touched nothing and didn't plan on it. In this position IT things are above my pay grade and I mean that. The part comes in and the overnight(ONG) guy hooks it up. Basically the part just allows you to add other devices to the network, if they can be connected by ethernet cable. This doesn't fix the issue at all. So we go into the back and start looking at the piece of hardware that supplies music to the building. I unplug the CAT 5 from both pieces of jun- I mean hardware, one at a time. This is to figure out which one is casting a signal and which one isn't. After trial and error, I figured out that it's certainly a hardware issue and which piece it is. I explain to ONG that x piece of hardware is no longer responding and that replacing it may fix the issue. This is the extent of my trouble shooting for this issue. I let my boss know that she should reach out to IT and they should (haha) be able to resolve the issue. Calls IT Friday "we'll be there Monday." (Mhm) They didn't show up til Wednesday (yesterday). IT tries all day to fix it and they can't. They believe someone messed it up terribly and that blame is falling to me. The note left on the main shared office computer tells me as much.
"NO ONE IS TO TOUCH, OR CHANGE, ANYTHING ON THESE COMPUTERS. NOT PICTURES, NOT RINGTONES, NOT ANYTHING. BOSS IS VERY UPSET AND WANTED TO KNOW WHO WAS TOUCHING THESE COMPUTERS. THE IT GUY AND BOSS TALKED. BOSS WASN'T HAPPY WITH WHOEVER HAS BEEN CHANGING AND DOING THINGS TO THESE COMPUTERS. THE IT GUY COULDN'T FIX THE ISSUE AND HOME OFFICE MAY HAVE TO GET INVOLVED." - Per Boss
This is not a direct note to me, but I have told them about my experience in IT, I am the one who helps our independent seniors, I mentioned the issue and I also attempted to diagnose the issue. This has me fuming. I feel the accusation in the note. I guess more over the weekend girl who was filling in said."Morning person said to make sure YOU saw this." And that really put me in the spotlight.This whole things has made my blood boil. I'm being accused of fucking up something that was fucked up before I even got back from my leave.
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2021.09.23 11:33 Entrepreneur_CRYPTO Need help with Miner Wiring of Risers

So this is my current setup:
GPU: 12 x 1660Supers (mix of ASUS AND ZOTAC) MoBo: BioStar TB360 BTC PRO PSU: 2 x Antec 850W Gold Risers: Generic Unbranded Mining ETH at 417MH/s
The issue is, currently, I have connected all my risers via SATA (i know it’s not recommended). Seeing all the posts here, I have realised that SATA for powering risers is a very bad idea.
Each PSU has 3 PCIe cables, with each wire having 2x 6+2 headers. So in total, I have connected 12 GPUs between these 2 PSUs, and don’t have any 6 pins left for powering risers. (Molex available. Good idea for risers?)
Need your help in finding the best way to power risers since this Miner of locked up in my office unattended, and I have a deep fear of it catching fire!
Please help!
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2021.09.23 11:33 gilfoylethetechguy My experience at a film club's online discussions on movies

Hello fellow redditors, I'd love to talk about a film club, which I'm a part of from the days they used to organize physical screenings, and discussions. Due to pandemic they had to shift it online. Every weekend they would have two movie discussions in the evening, each on Saturday, and on Sunday. And the selected movies are based upon a theme for a month. The movies are not our regular OTT or mainstream movies, almost all of them are off beat hidden gems!
For current month the theme is Urbanism. The very last Sunday the discussion was on a documentary called The World Before Your Feet. It was about a guy named Matt Green, who has walked every street in New York City, which is about 8000 miles! To our surprise the moderators had invited him to join the conversation with us, where he spoke about his purpose and the reason he walked all over the city. Also one the Malayalam film industry's finest directors, Mr. Adoor Gopalakrishnan had joined us for the discussion on his film Anantaram.
Even on this Sunday they have a discussion regarding the movie Ek Ghar, directed by the notable Kannada filmmaker Mr. Girish Kasaravalli, and he is joining us as the chief panelist! I personally, and the film club would love to have more movie freaks take notice of their film related activities, and join us on these wonderful movie discussions every weekend! The club's name is The Parallel Cinema Club, you can catch up with them on Insta, FB, Twitter with the name theparallelcinemaclub. They are mostly active on Telegram.
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